If

If I had a flower for every time I thought of you
I would walk in a garden all day
If I had a cloud for every time you were away
I would be living in near darkness
If I could kiss you as often as I wanted
A thousand would still not be enough
If I would seize a moment in time to represent you
The clocks would stop forever

(c) Blu Jewel 2006

Already Miss

As we broke from our embrace
I felt the warmness of you fade
And before I turned to leave
I already missed you

(c) Blu Jewel 2006

Just Listen

Words in my head are filled with rage
Instead of screaming, I write them on a page
I can clear my head and say the things I feel
Free to expose the things my mouth won’t reveal

The words in voice rarely come out right
No matter how hard I practice and recite
I’d rather spill the beans in prose or verse
Instead of watered down words I had to rehearse

It’s amazing how little one hears
The words said so close to their ears
But when on paper my thoughts I express
I get immediate response to all my duress

If only people would pay attention
And listen to when I try to mention
The things that really hurt and irk me so
Then rage on paper would not need to be shown

(c) Blu Jewel 2006

Our Melody

Removed by author

(c) Blu Jewel 2006

Quote #2

There is no more noble occupation in the world than to assist another human being - to help someone succeed.

-- Alan Loy McGinnis

RaNdOm StOrY #2

The heat rose in her body as she suppressed her need to respond. She was pushed against the wall, feeling the coldness cool her tempered cheeks. Unable to respond, she allowed her legs to be spread as she felt the hands run up and down; inside and out her legs and between her thighs. The heat in her continued to rise, but again she could do nothing. Her hands were pushed above her head and her body was felt and patted down. Not satisfied with the topical exploration, she was forced to remove her clothes and prepared for a more thorough searching. She gasped out loud as her cavities were searched probed. The heat rose to vulcanic eruptions as she felt the violation of her body.

"Get dressed!" The voice commanded as she scrambled for her clothes.

Humiliated and frustrated she dressed and sat in a hunched ball in the corner of the room.

"Get up and get out!" The voice again commanded. "We made a mistake, you're not the person we were looking for, though you fit the description."

"What?" She feebly replied in spite of her mounting anger. "You fucking frisk me and then full cavity search me and you got the wrong person?" Tears poured down her cheeks as she raced toward the officer. "Bitch!" She screamed, lunging forward.

"Get back and the fuck away from me, before I have a reason to do this all over again."

Quote

"The worst walls are never the ones you find in your way.
The worst walls are the ones you put there - you build yourself.
Those are the high ones, the thick ones, the ones with no doors in.
- Ursula k. LeGuin

I came across this quote and it made me think of all those people who are guarded to a fault, who want in, but won't let you in, and for those of us who wonder why some people are the way they are.

Truth or Truth

This is not your typical Truth or Dare because it's Truth or Truth; meaning you have to tell the truth regardless. I was chillin at my girl jus.b.fli's spot and she has one of my fave songs on video; Like a Star by Corrine Bailey Rae. I've listened to the song for hours without ever growing wary of it, but today the lyrics seemed to really do something to me. So, here's my Truth or Truth for you.

Listen to the song, read the lyrics and then tell me who has ever moved you like that. You can provide minimal info if you'd like, but you still have to truthfully name someone (I'll allow initials for the painfully shy) and the experience.

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LIKE A STAR

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Only to love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is a fake
Without a doubt you're by my side
Heaven has been way too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind, yeah

Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

I have come to understand the way it is
Its not a secret anymore
Cos we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand

Oooh oooh

I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

Thoughts in motion!

This poem was partly written and then after a convo with jus.b.fli based on something she shared with me, I was able to finish it...These are her feelings (some of them at least) as told by me.

Every time I see you, it’s like seeing you for the first time...I’m consumed with the same nervous, yet excited energy that makes me weak when your eyes meet mine. Your stare that burns deep into the very core of me…and leads to a hug filled with the warmth of the hottest summer’s day. And then the kiss…the kiss that drowns the desert inside my mouth…soft, delicate, and passionate. I temporarily take leave of my senses as I’m taken with the oral bliss I feel.

Each time I walk away, I know it’s only a matter of time before I return, for you are the compass that points me north, and all roads lead to you. The journey to you, is a labyrinth of gargantuan proportions that I will gladly exhaust myself with knowing that the sound of your voice will echo like wind in my ear and be my guide.

Each time I try to consider how you slayed and maimed my subconscious into being high on my loveability quotient, I realize it’s not yet time to understand, but to jump parachute free into the chaotic sensibility that your company brings. As yet to be explained, I rebuke the inner voices that doubt the realness and yield to the liberty you’ve taken in imbibing me.

Every time I wonder, I realize that I shouldn’t…I should jus.b!

(c) Blu Jewel 2006